13.10 Professor NDiana A Whole New World

 12/05/2023 Let there be light again! As I observed the amethyst flash over the mountains of Machu Picchu in 1993 at the summer solstice, I believed in a New World dawning at  that moment. In this darkness of early morning in December 2023, 30 years later, it is dark in the world again…I watched again the Netflix 4 part series about the Nazi holocaust and a brave blind girl who would not be silenced as she broadcast hope on a shortwave radio channel 13.10 as her small seaside town Saint Malo was bombed…  ‘All the Light We cannot See’ The most important light is the light you cannot see…. in this time of stupid darkness… Darkness lasts for not even one second when you turn on the light… “Open your eyes and see what you can before they are closed forever”

 Sometimes it is necessary to be alone! Away from other’s thoughts, opinions and control that tend to cause us to split our focus away from our own personal power.. This is the conclusion I came to when I found myself in the well of toxic despair.  It’s difficult to be good to someone else if your not in a  good space yourself. I choose to be authentic to myself which is the only gift I can give back to others who cross my path.  I am finally alone in nature!  Birds are singing, I feel the gentle breeze caressing me as I observe the beauty of the glorious colors of autumn. I am patiently waiting for the guidance of my higher self to reconnect me to the voice of my own intuition and peace.  From Kahlil Gibran “ The Prophet":  He believed in love, he believed in peace, and he believed in understanding. “Let there be spaces in your togetherness, And let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love: Let it rather...

  12/02/2023 Melancholy is not my natural state, but the last several days I have been unable to come out of the well of deep contemplation and I don’t have a desire to interact with others. Is there a premonition of an external event that is the underlying cause? Its as though the outside world chaos has settled inside my heart. Christmas is the season of Joy, and yet, somehow the suffering within & without the body of Oneness is blanketing the world in a darkness that is closing heavily around me, trying to extinguish my light, like a black storm cloud. I do not wish to alarm you, but to share all emotions with you is honest. In the quiet of meditation, I am trying to discover why I am having these feelings, my soul has the ability to pick up these vibrations. There are many, many souls living in darkness now, perhaps this is my reason for sorrow…tomorrow will be a better day! 

  At 14 a move to another town without any consideration for my Mother’s heartfelt opinion and advice broke her spirit. We were a family of 7-children and I observed her incredible sadness from the 1st day she walked in the door to the home my father purchased without consulting her. The spiral down of their marriage ended up in a divorce my senior year and I was devastated at the way I observed how my younger brothers and sisters were suffering being split and barely taken care of. I was unable to go away to college as I had planned because my Mother needed me to care for the younger 2 that lived with her. Lost in the chaos of this at 18, I was seeking answers to what direction I could take and ended up joining the mormon church when I heard “families are forever” I married in the Salt Lake Temple 1-year later and was required to keep their covenants secret and told at the end of the 5-hours of a live acted presentation that, if I ever betrayed them, I would be in “outer darkness ...